Death symbolism is common in rites and visions of initiation. The baptism of Christian tradition, for example, according to the book of Romans, signifies the burial of Christ.
Symbols of death are of great use in rites of initiation– plastic Halloween skulls objectively empower initiation rites via symmetry magick– via symbolism. Visions of being physically torn apart by spirits symbolize initiation– the death or destruction of what you are as a precursor to magickal rebirth.
Unrelated: Do not neglect chakra work in magick– we all do it from time to time. There is no such thing as a fully open chakra– there is always progress to make. If you do not work with the chakras, apply this lesson in a more general sense: do not neglect the fundamental exercises of your practice. Spiritual development is not a straight upwards line– we all backtrack from time to time. Don’t be ashamed of that and do what you can to not let it happen. On the bright side, you’ll find that the road back up is much quicker than it was the last time.
Also Unrelated: Don’t compare yourself to other magickians. Spiritual competence is a deeply multifaceted thing. Just because someone exceeds you in one area doesn’t mean they’re better than you are and that you should feel ashamed: in means you can teach one another what the other lacks. Besides, if they exceed you, they’re still going to backtrack eventually, and when that happens, you’ll be helping them catch up.
Also Unrelated: According to Professor Jordan Peterson, the two personality traits which are shown to accumulate the most success in life are the I.Q. level and a trait called conscientiousness– conscientiousness is a combination of the traits of conscientiousness and orderliness. If your intent in demon magick is to improve yourself to maximize personal agency and your quality of personhood, these are the traits which you should seek to cultivate.
Also Unrelated: The crystal called phrenite is one of the most useful stones in magick and spirit work. Use it for everything. One of the greatest black magickians I ever met personally recommended it to me. I’m not big on crystal magick, but I have nothing but praise for phrenite.
Also Unrelated: Spiritual mentors and group affiliations come and go. Just because your mentor thinks you’re the one he’s been looking for doesn’t mean he’s meant to be in your life forever, or even for more than a short period of time. Just because your guiding spirits guided you to a group doesn’t mean you’re meant to stay there. Just because your mentor’s psychic faculties allow her to give you incredible insights and guidance in your spiritual pursuits doesn’t mean he can tell you how to live with accuracy. Don’t fucking move to another state for these people. They’re here to play a specific role in your path, and often times for us black magickians, you could’ve never gotten where you are without them, but they still aren’t meant to be in your life for long. Get what you need and move past them, but always show them the respect they deserve.
Also unrelated: my roommate just bought a pendulum with an obsidian gemstone depending from the chain. He handed the pendulum to me, and I asked his pendulum whether there was any spiritual advantage to using an actual pendulum instead of the pair of headphones I normally use for pendulum divination. I asked twice and got the same answer both times. I won’t be buying a pendulum.